Hahaha. Right now, i'm at my grandpa's house with my three awesome cousins. So sorry if this post will be super short!! Doing so many things as of now and just this morning, me and my other cousins wrapped some gifts mom will be handing out to the kids who will carol tonight!

So looking forward to the noche buena! I'm gonna take lots of pics to make sure this day will be remembered!

Alright! Gtg!
Have fun everyone!

#151: Sick :(

Gah. I’ve been sick for almost four days already, and it’s the kind of sickness you don’t feel 24 hours a day. It’s this on-an-off fever with a “dash” of headache and tummy ache, and I know I just can’t ignore this. It’s been hindering my performance at school, and if this continues, I won’t be sure about my class standing anymore. :(
Well, anyway, during my sick week, ADNU held it’s 10th Ateneo Digital Arts and Animation Festival (ADAAF), and me and two of my other friends were assigned to help at the registration tables. It was pretty awesome, since we got to see new faces and watch the animation show reels and portfolios by the juniors and seniors of our batch. When we saw the outputs, na-stress kami bigla. You know the feeling of wanting to match up or even surpass what our formers have done? Their works were amazing, and to think that in two, three years, we’d be the ones facing the same scrutiny regarding our portfolios. How do they do it? I know we’re just learning the basics now, but will we really be able to learn – or even grasp – the techniques and methods on animating 3D objects?
It’s really been stressful. To be honest, I’m actually feeling sick while I’m doing this. :( It just sucks.
I finally received the package from Arthouse about 2 days ago!!! Hell yeah! :)
I’m so excited to get started with my new Sketchbook! :) I chose the theme “Fill Me With Stories”, and within the first two days since I got it, I’d be able to fill half of the pages! So many things have happened to me these past few days. I hope I don’t get burned out more than I already am. Especially with my night class and all. Hrmmppf. But still, God is our strength and endurance. He loves us, and so there is no reason to worry about anything else.
Thanks! :)

#150: Back to “Shool”

Yes, classes have begun and even though I tried making the first half of the day great, people just get in the way. A classmate of mine seems to not understand the words “stop pissing me off”. I don’t want to get into details and give him another reason to bug me throughout the semester – I’d hate to be under this situation a minute longer. :( He’s not really that bad, but he can be a tremendous pain if he wants to. Ugh. If only I could change my section in Psychology and be as far from this guy as possible, I would grab at the chance.

Perhaps he knows I won’t really get angry with him for teasing me with another guy. I find it really hard to be angry at somebody, so even though I’d like to kick him for being so annoying, I can’t. Especially with him being my block mate and all. Besides, I don’t want to go through college being angry at people. I JUST WANT HIM TO freakin’ STOP getting on my NERVES. Is that too much to ask? Go pick on someone as crazy as you are, Mr. ******.

Now that’s done, I’d like to get into other happier matters. :)

Remember when I said it was possible for me to be included in the President’s List? Well, I didn’t get in, though I am a Dean’s Lister. My QPI was 3.4 something (sort of like a 1.5 in other universities?), and my friends, upon knowing my grades, immediately began telling me how sorry they were. “Just one point and you’d have been a PL!” Seriously though, I wasn’t that disappointed. I had hoped to be a PL, but I didn’t EXPECT to be one. There was a touch of pain, but nothing else. There’s always a way to redeem myself, and I plan to do that this semester. It’s not like the world stopped because I missed one point to PL-dom.

Aside from those stuff in school, I just had to make the word “school” to “shool” on purpose. Yep, no typo error there fellas. If you guys have watched MEGAMIND (starring Will Ferrell, Tina Fey, and Brad Pitt), you’ll relate to the simple reason for “shool”. Haha. Sometimes I wonder if Megamind had been a sort of green or purplish hue. The whole aura of the movie would’ve been different, I think.
But why the heck am I talking about this? :) I’m at home now, from school, and my next class is still at 1:30pm. A lot more things will be bound to happen today since I have a night class and since we have a department meeting at 4:30. Yadda-yadda-yadda. I hope I find the energy to tell you guys all about it later. This will probably be part one.

#149: What I've been up to

Hellah! :)) I felt like I've been gone for almost forever from the blogging world that I'm so ashamed. Haha. Yeah. The first week of school was awesome, especially our first session/orientation for our Basic Sketching and Digital Illustration class. :)

So to the point... We were asked by our prof to make a pencil sketch of our favorite character, and i drew Hatsune Miku from the Vocaloid character series. :))

Still to submit this drawing on Monday. :)

#148: First Day, BAD Day

In case you haven't seen my schedule yet (post #146), I have classes on a Friday, and would you believe that my school decided to declare tomorrow, Nov. 4, FRIDAY as the start of our classes for the second sem? It's not a biggie, but with the holiday on Monday, wouldn't it be logical to move the first day of classes to Nov. 8 altogether? I mean, how hard would it be to save the last few days of vacation???

Sorry for ranting, and I beg your pardon. Haha. I'm not usually like this, but man! Am I annoyed at the schedule! :( Can't they have a little more sense most of the time? LOL.

So anyway, this is one of the quickest posts I've ever made, again my apologies. Here's a little image to leave you guys with.

Cute, cute, cute pup and kitty! Hahah! Friendship breaks all borders. :)

#147: November! :)

Hey! It's the first day of November, and though most of the attention are going to Halloween parties and the All Souls Day fiesta here at our place in Bicol, I've given my focus to music/jamming at the balcony.

Some of you might get offended with this post, and I'll understand if you choose to unfollow. :)
Personally, I no longer celebrate Halloween. Why? Well, I've learned that, even though it's seen as a harmless, childish event of the year, it's origins are said to date back to paganism or cultism. Being a Christian, I think it's not right to celebrate such a dark event.

I know, I know. I feel a sadness in my heart when I see kids get disappointed because they can't go trick-or-treating (ToT, which rarely, if never, happens in the Philippines). But you see, if they don't understand the background or reason for what they're celebrating, they'll be contented to settle down in the future with just following the trends. They won't develop curious minds, and even if its dangerous for them, they won't bother asking questions because they've never really cared. All they wanted was to have fun.

I've celebrated Halloween for about 16 years, and even after being born again in Christ, I continued greeting everybody "Happy Halloween". It was only about three years ago that I realized (through asking people I look up to) that Halloween shouldn't be celebrated by Christians. Google the origins of this occasion and read, read, read. Still, I'm not a big activist or something like that that hate people who celebrate it. As I said earlier, it's my personal opinion. Feel free to correct me or share your insights, but for now, I am convinced I should avoid participating in Halloween stuff.

About Christmas... I'll post about it on December. :) But hey, I acknowledge Christmas, but we all know that giving gifts and "Santa Claus" aren't the real reason for Christmas. But that'll be a different post. ;)

Happy Hallo - oh...

Have a great day!

#146: My Schedule for this sem!

Click to enlarge. :)

Compared to my previous schedule in the first sem, there's a lot of vacant times this semester, add to that the fact that I now have a night class! Should I be happy about that? Haha. I guess I should be. I have no Saturday classes now! It's a big relief since I want to go to my grandpa's place in the weekend. :)

Another thing I'm happy about is our 3-hour Basic Sketching class! LOL yeah. :)

Studying Digital Illustration and Animation in Ateneo is going to be AWESOME. :D

Note: Sorry I've been out of the loop this week! I'll make up for it this Saturday. Or Sunday. Or Monday? Heck. Haha. I'll post something random in the next days.

#145: Black and Whites!

I've uploaded the following drawings onto my art blog, but since I want to share it with you guys, here you go! Enjoy!

#144: Karaoke!

I really enjoyed working on this one! I was listening to Lim Leong Hee's song "Golden Lady", and guess what I came up with? Since the beat was so effing awesome, I drew a girl singing karaoke. I did one with a background, but since I know I SUCK at backgrounds, I posted the "clean" version. I need to earn how to draw backgrounds! This is so sad. Haha.

Have a great weekend people! :))

#143: Work In Progress

Sorry if I've been sort of absent these past few days! :) Been pretty busy with a lot of other distractions. Haha. Anyway, I've been trying to work with my Faber Castell watercolor pencils (though I've had them for almost a year now!), and so far, I'm liking the results. :)

here's my current work in progress:

As you can see, it's not perfect yet, but I hope to make a lot of progress in the next days. :) I'm still experimenting with the colors and how I can blend them.

I've also uploaded a finished product of another drawing in my art blog. Click here to see it.

Ciao! And thanks for stopping by!

Journal Monday: People I'm Thankful For

People have always said that the greatest factor which contributes to a person's happiness and sense of fulfillment comes not from material things or the surroundings, but from the people around him/her. My journal for today is about those people who have made me thankful to be alive.

In no particular order:

My brother, JP - He helps me see the beauty and fun in life at times when I don't see it anymore, like when my schedule is filled with school activities and other things. He gives me the sense of responsibility, and makes me feel useful to be around. :) I love my brother!

My mom and dad - What can I say? They made me who I am today, and I wouldn't be alive right now if it weren't for them. But other than that, the fact that they support me and love me with their lives is enough for me to be thankful to them. I hope to repay them one day, and let them feel how much I love them.

The Olivares family - They were our first friends in Oman and the church we found there, so the attachment of our families became pretty tight. They helped us in everything. I don't even know how to repay them for their kindness.

Ate Maira - She was the youth Bible Study leader of our church back in Oman, and her kind and encouraging words helped me believe in myself more and helped me strengthen my faith in God. Even though I let her down a couple of times, she never failed me, and that's something I really, really am thankful for.

Lola Iye - I've never been able to bond with her, but with her encouragement and support for my family makes her one of the people I cherish the most. Distance is no reason for 'family'. I pray that soon, we'll be able to see each other!

Lola Remy - Like my lola Iye, I haven't been able to see her personally, but whenever we get to chat on Facebook, it seems like we've been close for years. She gives me words of encouragement and also seeks God's guidance in all things.

Ate Ganda - My soul sister! :) How can I not be thankful for the person who showered me with verbal blessings and who shared my opinion on things that matter to the both of us? She made me think about how I could be a better person, and she supported my God-given talents. :)

Aunty Itas - She gives us support through finances, encouragement and other things, and helps lolo get by everyday at home in San Jose. On a personal basis, she has helped me with school fees and has been supporting my chosen course from day one. Thank you po!

I know I'm forgetting a lot of people, but my minds still seems to be focused on the exams we had and are going to have in the next few days. :) But I'll get by, I promise.

#142: Love

This is turning out to be the weirdest, craziest week of my life.

Not only is our sem break over -- but I'm getting a sort of... feeling I'm not really used to... explaining..


Why should I explain? I can't put it into words. However, I stayed up last night to do this. :) Hahaha. I'm just so crazed. I want to be with people right now. Like, people I like. GAH. This is the worst grammatical post I've ever done. Haha.

Image Tuesday: Sunlit Stone Structure

Prompt: Oct. 11, 2011
sunlit stone structure

As the sun seeps through the stained glass windows, a princess, up in the highest tower of the castle, sees not the beauty of its light - instead she sees the last hours of her freedom disappear. Oh how difficult it is to be royalty! 

Yes, all the grandeur, the magnificence, the beauty of material things are hers but alas -- freedom is nothing more than a dream. Since birth 'til her dying day, the princess is bound to a higher authority, to a responsibility that dictates who she is and who she must be to the people in the kingdom. Kitchen maids and commoners fare better, for their freedom is within grasp and there are no rules that keep them from being happy. 

Goodbye, for I am soon to be thrown into the prison of arranged marriage. Goodbye, lovely doves, for no longer will I be able to appreciate the sweet music of your wings flapping by and by against my window every morning. Goodbye, freedom. I will never find the key to your door.

Journal Monday: I make _____ very good.

Fill in the blank and elaborate on: I make _____ very good.

My answer: I make the word 'fat' sound very good.

Not to brag, but a lot of the things people say that those with extra weight can't do is no biggie for me at all. Well, for starters, I can swim very well, I can play sports (like badminton and basketball) as well as a thin person can, I can run up and down the stairs longer than average without tiring up easily, I can be a great pillow (hey, I'm not that fat but I've got extra baggage too) and comforter, and of course, I have a lot of talents that could shame the people joining contests on TV these days.

All the good qualities that people expect from the lean folks are also present in me, and I'm surely not the only one blessed to have these things. I'm certain a lot more people like me are just as talented.

Break: I know I'm sounding like a self-obsessed freak right now, but this prompt demands facts and I'm more than ready to disclose them. Haha. Sorry for sounding so boastful (just give me this one post and I promise I won't blog like this anymore!).

#141: FINALS! :/

This past week has been a BLAST, in more ways than one.

It has been great because my prayers of being exempted from the Philippine History final exams have been answered - exempted na ako! It's a great feeling to finally reap the fruits of harvest. Praise God for His guidance and wisdom! :)

Also, It's been a blast because some of the lessons I've had were not as clear as I hoped it would be. But no matter - I've made up my mind to do some self-studying over the weekend, so I assume it won't be a burden.

Next week is Final Examinations Week, and all of us (my classmates) can feel the tension and the nearing end of the first semester. I am excited, though a bit regretful that I might not be able to spend the next sem with all of my block mates. We were told of a jumble in the sectioning, but I just PRAY that they change the plan and let us have another semester together. :)

Since I have only 5 more subjects left to review for, my schedule is pretty loose. It means more leisure time, and more fun. :D Hahaha.

I guess that's it.
Good night!

Image Tuesday: A Doll's Love

Prompt: Oct. 4, 2011
doll on a bike in a doorway

I wait outside the doors, listening to a conversation he should be having with me. He tells you, "I love you. You have always been been beside me - a constant companion." Tears form in the corner of my eye but alas, my short, limp arms cannot brush them aside. Have I not been a companion to you as well? I have been with your lady love as long as she has been with you - yet you see me not. 

My eyes blur and my mind goes blank at her reply of "yes", words that are of positive meaning to both of you but which imply heartache to me. But who am I kidding? No one thinks I can feel anything, for I am merely a doll. A doll seen only as an object to be played with or worse, displayed for all to admire but not love.

Why must you leave me in the cold like this? Am I not of value enough to be with you and your love inside this house of wonders? You did not even let me into the warmth of your bag for rest and comfort, yet I know your answer even before you utter the words.

I am a doll, and nothing more, sitting just outside your door. 

Journal Monday: Blood

Journal about your reaction to blood. Your first reaction to blood in the movies or on TV as well as your experience with blood in real life.

When I was a kid, I had been very, very disgusted (terrified even) of smelling and seeing blood physically, though I myself have bled due to wounds I got from being too hyper. Well, I guess it's not surprising much that now, I don't care if I see blood anywhere. Not unless it's from someone diseased but let's not get off track here.

Anyway, since I've feared blood before because I always associated it with death, demons, vampires, and other monsters, I thought of a "cure" to this fact. How, you may ask? By watching movies with extra gore (like SAW and others) and studying more about the monsters I dread. Zombies used to sicken me, because they are often portrayed eating the human flesh and bathing in blood, but since 5 years ago, images like those don't disturb me as much. I actually become fascinated. 

As for blood in movies, the fact that it looks so real intrigues me. I amuse myself by watching behind the scenes of horror movies and how they apply make-up to the characters that require bloodied faces and stuff. It's really very interesting and it inspires me more than drinking hot chocolate in the morning. For some reason, I get to write great stories after watching or reading something frightening with more skill than I normally would.

Blood in real life? I don't think I've bled enough to make an interesting story about it, but as I said, blood doesn't really bother me anymore. I've grown so used to seeing it that it seems normal for me. Creepy right? But don't let me scare you.

Of course, blood is something we all need to stay alive, so make sure it stays inside your body at all costs. Don't freak out when you get a minor cut or prick yourself with a needle. These are harmless and can be quickly aided to. Just don't try hacking your arm off though. That would be really messy. ;)

One-Word Thursday: Tissues

What can I associate with the word "Tissues"?

Funny - I can think of a few words that are not quite related. Here are a few: pencil, marker, mummy, bathroom, Christmas, joke, comfort, art, etc. 

Tissues are actually "glorious" things that are very handy to have around often. For example, whenever my brother spills something on the floor, I immediately think: "Get tissues" while others probably want to get a mop or something of the sort. 

Another example would be when I draw on my sketchbook and need something to smudge a portion of it. I grab a tissue and not an ear bud. I know ear buds are better at smudging smaller portions, but if you're me and you normally want to smudge a BIGGER part of the drawing, tissues are there to save the day.

Another use for tissues, aside from it's importance in the bathroom, is for writing down notes when you have no paper available. My friends and I did that the other day, when we ate at McDonald's after P.E. class. We wanted to make the memory of our eating out a little more memorable, so we took out our ink pens and started writing random stuff on the tissues. We even wrote a letter to anyone who would see the tissue.

Now, I don't really know why I came up with the word Christmas after "tissue". Perhaps, now that I think about it, I remember the snow and the cheerful "White Christmas" my favorite Christmas songs sing about. I'm still waiting for the day I get to see real snow and experience making snow angels on it!

How about you? What do you think of when you hear the word "Tissues"?

#140: End of numbered posts! *heart*

Right then.

Today, I had the liberty of surfing through the web and looking for inspiration for my blog. I so happened to come across blog memes and prompts that, after some consideration and much thought, I decided to stop numbering my posts and instead focus on the theme for the day.

I saw a lot of great websites which feature great inspiration, but for now, I'm going to get my blog posts' themes from The Write Prompts. They feature different themes for each day of the week! How cool is that! Head over there to start your own blog meme. :)

Note: I'll only number my posts if I'm blogging about something totally random and personal. :)

Image Tuesday: Cracked Earth

Hey there!

"Image Tuesday" is an image prompt (from here) that is held every Tuesday (as the title obviously points out).  You are given a picture and after some observation, are prompted to write your thoughts or ideas about it. So, let's get cracking and start the prompt!

Prompt: Sept. 27, 2011
cracked dirt with people in distance

Friendship is like this portion of the ground, strong, sometimes dirty, but strong nonetheless. However, trials/storms come and try to break that friendship, and if it succeeds, the relationship ends up like this - broken, and hard if not impossible to mend.

I've been at this situation in my life and believe me, it hurts more than a breakup (also based on observation because I have never been in a relationship to experience the latter first hand). It happened during high school, and there were three of us in the group. In the first two years of friendship, everything was great and even though we didn't agree on some things, the relationship worked for the three of us. However, because of an innocent joke I pulled on one of them, my friendship with her received a crack, much like the one in the picture above.
She told me that she was hurt about what I did and even though it was only a joke that didn't really tease or insult her, she explained that she had been experiencing already rotten feelings because of others, and my little joke blew the fuse. I apologized sincerely, and we resumed our friendship after that. But we weren't able to mend it to the way it originally was. Sure we were never hostile or cold to each other, bu the closeness was gone and I really regret that point in my life.
The single time I thought of being funny and silly turned out to be the biggest mistake I could make in a friendship as good as ours. 

But of course, I learned something valuable through that event, and that is to be more aware of other people's moods before doing anything sudden and unlike me. I don't want to plant bad seeds and regret planting them afterwards.

#138: More Facts!

Before I share other random things, I must post another entry that describes who I am, so please bear with this other post! I promise the next one won’t be like this. It’ll be more substantial. :) I promise.

  • I’m loud.
  • I’m sarcastic.
  • I cry easily. 
  • I have a bad temper. 
  • I’m easy to get along with. 
  • I have more enemies than friends.
  • I’ve smoked
  • I drink coffee. 
  • I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

  • I wear make-up.  (eye liners only)
  • I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
  • I wear contacts.
  • I wear glasses. 
  • I have braces.
  • I change my hair color often.
  • I have a piercing.
  • I have small feet.


  • I’m in a relationship now.
  • I’m single.
  • I’m crushin’. 
  • I’ve missed an ex before.
  • I’m always scared of being hurt.
  • I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
  • I’ve been in love more than two times.
  • I believe in love at first sight.


  • I have a best friend.  
  • I have at least ten REAL friends.
  • I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
  • I’ve beaten up a friend. 
  • I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
  • I can trust at least five people with my life.


  • I’ve been on a plane.
  • I’ve taken a taxi.
  • I’ve taken a city bus.
  • I’ve taken a school bus.
  • I’ve made a speech. 
  • I’ve been in some sort of club.


  • I listen to R&B.
  • I listen to pop.
  • I listen to techno.
  • I listen to rock. 
  • I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it. 
  • I download music. 
  • I buy CD’s.

Family Life:

  • I get along with both of my parents for the most part.
  • My biological parents are still together.
  • I have at least one brother.
  • I’ve been kicked out of the house.
  • I’ve sworn at my parents.
  • I’ve made my parents cry. 
  • I’ve lied to my parents. 
  • I’ve lied to my parents about where I am. 
  • I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.


  • I’ve had streaks.
  • I’ve cut my hair in the past year. 
  • I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
  • I’ve been blonde. 
  • I’ve had black.
  • I’ve been red.
  • I use conditioner.  
  • I’ve curled my hair. 
  • I’ve straightened my hair.

#137: Facts.

I came across this post in Tumblr and since I wanted to let others know more about me without being too wordy, I decided it would be a great idea for me to just post this up. If you'd like, you too can post this on your blog. Just bold the ones that apply to you.

I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have/want a tattoo.
I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces. (retainers)
I have more than two piercings.


Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.


I’ve gotten stitches.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had chicken pox.


I’ve been to Florida.
I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometers in one day.
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to Asia.
I’ve been to America.
I’ve been to The Middle East.
I’ve been to Australia.
I’ve been to the Caribbean.
I’ve been to Europe.

I’ve gotten lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve slapped someone.
I’ve kissed someone underwater.
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a musical.
I’ve auditioned for something.
I’ve been on stage.

I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
I’ve pranked someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.

[Honesty / Crime]

I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
I’ve broken a law.
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.

I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve been in a fist fight.

I’m afraid of dying.
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die.

Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
I have attempted suicide.
I’ve thought about suicide before.
I’ve written a eulogy for myself.


I own over 5 rap CD’s.
I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books.

I own a lot of makeup.
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on E-Bay.
I own something from Abercrombie.
I thrive on compliments.
I thrive on hate.

I can sing low key.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I don’t like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.

I’m a morning person.

I’m a sports fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.

I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
I bake well.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
I would wear pajamas to school.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes. (LIKE A Freakin' BOSS)
I eat fast food weekly.
I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
I like white chocolate.

I bite my nails.
I’m good at remembering names.
I’m good at remembering dates.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

..used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
..called me fat.
..say I’m skinny.
..have said I’m ugly.
..have said I’m pretty.

..have spread rumors about me.
..force me to eat.
..say I eat too much.
..say I eat too little.

I’ve lost weight.
I’ve gained weight.

I’m at my thinnest.
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood. A lot.
I diet.
I’m vegan/vegetarian.
I exercise.
I’ve fainted from exhaustion.

I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve planned to run away from home before.
I’ve run away from home.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want kids.
I’ve had kids.
I’ve lost a child.

I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’m a swinger.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I have/had a friend with benefits.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.

I’ve gotten divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.


I’m a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I’ve kissed a stranger.

[Bad times]
I regularly drink.
I can’t swallow pills
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have/had anxiety problems.
I shut others out when I’m upset.
I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before.
I’ve plotted revenge.

#133: From the ACP to the Fiesta Break!


More than a week has passed since our Pre-Final Exams, and I'm actually sort of excited to see the results of our remaining tests. I know I didn't get a perfect score in -ehemm- Math, but hey, at least I know I got a lot of the items right. That in itself is worth being proud of (in a not-so-conceited way).

Anyway, last Sept. 13, Ateneo held its Alternative Class Program (ACP), a day where you get to choose a single topic (eg. blogging, cooking, cardistry, etc.) and attend a lecture about it, instead of having a regular class day. I had a dilemma while choosing because there were a number of topics that I wanted to learn more about, which would help develop my current interests and hobbies.

On the first day of the registration, I roamed around Xavier Hall to see ALL the topics available, even though it was sort of crowded in more places than one. In the end, I chose Blogging, Journalism, Digital Photography, Cartooning, and of course, Voice Lessons. But what I didn't know was that each student was allowed only ONE topic. That disappointed me sooooo much! What a waste of class time! I was hoping for the ACP to be for the whole day, and that we could choose more than one lecture to attend. I mean, there were morning and afternoon sessions, so it wouldn't really be a hassle for students who have the desire to learn more and do more. Given the conditions, my choice was hard at first, but satisfying in the end: Voice Lessons.

I learned soo much from our speaker, Sir Reburiano, and gained knowledge of breathing techniques and how to distinguish great music from the good, down to the worst sounds. I found myself agreeing to most of his sentiments, which got me even more interested in the topic. It got me thinking, "Hey, we actually have the same beliefs regarding music!" I'll leave the details out and save them for the reflection papers required to be submitted next week. :)

All in all, though there were a number of cancelled topics and a sudden change of schedules and venues, the ACP was a good refresher for students who are constantly busy with school work. I really think the ACP should be held more than twice a year, and that it should be for a whole day. Imagine the knowledge a student can acquire in that period of time!

Now, moving forward.

As mentioned in the title, this week is for the Penafrancia Festival, which means more vacation time! Yeah! Sadly, however, that also means MORE projects, more homework, and more reflection papers to do before classes resume on the 20th. Add to that the sudden switch-back-to-serious-student mode and it'll be one heck of a first day back.

One thing I must leave you with, folks, is the fact that no matter how tiring life can get, there will always be that single moment or day in the week that will make you feel at peace and relaxed. It may not be noticeable, but it's bound to be there. We all just have to look for it harder. :)

Happy vacation week, fellow Ateneans! Enjoy!

#132: My Weird Day

Two really weird (perhaps even terrifying) things happened to me this day. Both happened just at the front of our house, while I was waiting for a tricycle to take me to Ateneo. Now the first incident wasn't really scary in any way - a lady just asked me if there were any vacancies in our compound and asked how much it cost. I told her to just copy the contact number (posted on a small sign by the gate) and inquire through the owner, since I really had no definite figures to give. After that, she went on her way.

The second incident happened just after the lady and her companion left, which is why I classified these two things as weird. Anyway, as I was waiting by the road, I saw this man (maybe in his early 30's or so) dressed up like a teenager, with chains and his cap placed backwards - singing and walking in a "weird" way. I fought the urge to look at him, since that might give him a false hint that I was open for conversation.
Well, I might have failed because when he was just in front of me, he stopped. This is how our talk sort of went:

Man: "Sino ang presidente ngayon ng Ateneo?" (Who is the current president of Ateneo?)
Me: (hesitant to answer) ...
Man: "Ah, si Viray. Ano'ng first name niya?" (Oh, Viray. What's his first name?)
Me: "Primitivo po..."
Man: "Ah primitivo. Mabait naman? Laging nasa school?" (Ah, Primitivo. Is he kind? Is he always at school?)
Me: "Opo, mabait naman po. Nasa school po siya lagi." (Yes, he's kind. He's always at school.)

By this time, I was already silently praying to God that either this man leaves (and doesn't harm me) or I find a tricycle to end our "talk". My eyes met his only twice, and I did my best to look as far away as possible. He was actually kind, but he seemed a bit "off" if you know what I mean. He was fluent in English, but he ate some of his words and he really had this creepy aura.

Man: Pwede kaya akong pumasok sa Ateneo? (Do you think I can go inside Ateneo?)
Me: "Hindi ko lang po alam. May guard po kasi lagi." (I don't know. There are always guards around.)
Man: Ahh. Pwede makita ID mo? Ikaw na ba bumili nitong case? (Can I look at your ID? Were you the one who bought this plastic case?)
Me: "Opo." (Yes.)

I knew it was dangerous to let other people know contact numbers and names, so I showed him my ID but covered everything except for the Ateneo logo at the top. I had really bad vibes from the guy!

Man: "Ako, hindi ko na sinurrender yung ID ko. Ginawa ko na siyang souvenir." (Ah, I didn't surrender my ID. I kept it as a souvenir.)
Me: "Ah, ganun po ba?" (Oh, is that so?)
Man: "Oo. Meron pa bang APO sa Ateneo?" (Yes. Is there still an APO in Ateneo?)
Me: "APO? Ano po yun?" (APO? What's that?)
Man: "APO. Fraternity. Meron pa ba non?" (APO. A fraternity. Does it still exist?)
Me: "Ay, wala po kasi akong alam sa mga frats sa Ateneo." (Oh, I don't know any frats in Ateneo.)
Man: "Ano apelyido mo?" (What's your surname?)

At that, alarm bells echoed through my brain. I thought, this isn't right. So i told him straight out that I don't give my surname to just anyone, especially strangers. He then asked me if he could see my ID just one more time. I refused, and he didn't persist, much to my relief.

Right that moment, I saw an empty tricycle and really signaled for the driver to stop. Perhaps he noticed my nervousness? Before I sped away, the man told me something that I didn't quite understand, but it sounded like he was wishing me luck - or something else. I don't know! Everything was a blur from the moment he asked for my surname until I got into the tricycle.

Now you guys might think me stupid, for letting a stranger talk to me for more than 5 minutes, and I don't blame you. But somehow, my curiousness got the better of me. As much as I wanted to get as far away from the man as possible, I wanted to stay and learn more about him, but with no intention of friendship and such. It intrigued me that this man, who was already in his early 30's, was still wearing a teenager's style of clothing, knew about Ateneo, was probably a student there, and conversed well in English. For all I know, he could've been really smart and went nuts because of it!

But now that it's over, I'm more in a wondering state. What if I had talked with the guy longer, and discovered something about Ateneo and a former student?

#131: Pre-Finals.

There are a million of things to be done before the end of this semester, and right now, I have absilutely NO IDEA where I should start and which tasks I should prioritize. (I'm even wondering why I'm blogging when I have Prefinal exams tomorrow! Argh.)

1. The Humanities project which we still haven't verified details for yet;
2. "Talumpati" (speech) for Filipino class that, although is easy in English, is proving itself very stressful;
3. The small group project that requires acting skills and good memorization (still for Filipino class!);
4. And finally, the dreaded Pre-final and Final examinations on Sept. and Oct.

How will I get through this? A question with the simplest, most obvious answer continues to stress me out. Of course God will be there with me, every second of the day, with or without exams. :) How comforting is that? Awesome.

Gotta scram and focus on studying for English and Philippine History. Have I mentioned these two subjects are both heavy on the brain and they follow each other every Tuesday and Thursday! Sometimes, school can be such a cactus.

#126: "Buwan Ng Wika"

Have you ever felt like you've inhaled too much helium and your chest gets so heavy and you can't breathe properly anymore? Well, that's what I felt today, at the "Buwan Ng Wika" program at school. Our block participated in two of the three events: Sabayang Pagbigkas, Interpretative Dance, and Vocal Solo.

1. Sabayang Pagbigkas. There was only one microphone, so you can see the disadvantage at once. You can't really hear the voices, but some of our blockmates really tuned up their voices. :)

2.Vocal Solo. OMG. Yess, as you might have guessed (or not), I entered myself into the contest for the following reasons: (1) For the 50% grade in our upcoming pre-finals, (2) For the experience, and (3) For myself. It was really nerve-racking, and can you believe I faltered? Yes, pumiyok ako. It was so embarrassing, but my classmates said it wasn't that obvious. I DON'T believe them. When I watched the playback, I thought I sounded awful when my voice didn't reach the high note (which I have always reached before). Oh wells.

When I told my dad about it during FB a few minutes ago, he said it was natural for me to piyok especially since I was nervous and it was my first time in front of a lot of people for a contest. :) Haaay. Still though...

So the result was, I placed 2nd, out of 7 females. (There was a vocal solo for men too, but they separated the awarding for that.) Though I was aiming for the top spot, I still have reason to thank God because I wasn't expecting second. Most of the contestants really had good voices - how was I supposed to win? But God answered my prayers. I silently prayed, "Kahit 3rd place lang..." and what do you know? I placed one higher. PRAISE GOD for His goodness and strength. :)

Blogger seems to hate the videos I've been trying to upload since the start of this entry. :( The video won't upload! Dang! :( Well, anyway, I guess I've updated you guys enough. Next, next week is our Pre-finals, and I haven't started reviewing yet! Math is turning out to be awesome though.

Tomorrow, I still have P.E. class in the morning, then I'm off to San Jose for the long vacation! Hooray! (I should get my assessment tomorrow... hmm.)

#125: Sooooo tired!! :(

As I am typing these words, one hand is holding a peanut butter sandwich, which finds its way into my mouth every so often. I pause and use my other hand (the one typing) to take a sip out of the refreshing, cooling cup of water to my right. After satisfying my thirst, I go back to typing, with the hand holding the sandwich still doing its job: feeding me.

Now that I've described my setting, it's time for me to explain in detail the reasons for this very descriptive introduction. Hopefully, if you ever do what a lot of Ateneans did today, you won't have to endure the sun's killer stare.

start break <I take a bite out of my sandwich. Hmmm... yummy... nom-nom*> end break

Back to blogging.

Today, August 13, 2011, I went to my first tree planting activity, at Brgy. Pandan, Cabusao, CamSur. I had grand plans and even dreamed of finishing the task without a hassle. We were told to plant two trees in the area, and that didn't seem like much of a challenge for me. So, I shrugged the activity off and didn't bother researching on the how-to's and the what-not's.

Well, when I got there, I realized the pain I would have to endure just to get one tree planted. Along with my block mates, we positioned ourselves alphabetically and began digging through the dirt, pulling out the weeds, and picking out the rocks from the soil. I thought to myself, "Lord, you alone can give me the strength to finish this." I couldn't do it alone, and I knew it. So, as the others sang a bit and cursed at the blistering sun, I silently did my work. I wouldn't waste my energy ranting on and on about the situation.
As my spot for planting was nearing its clean state, one of the coordinators approached us (me and the next four afterwards) and apologized, saying that we were digging at the spot with pipes and that we had to move to another place. It's safe to say that I got discouraged after that. How could the others understand the effort we put in? It hurt to realize that we had to start from the very beginning and get dirty all over again. Add to that the humidity and sunlight and you've got a deadly trio.

Anyway, even though we were moved to another spot, I was very grateful because I was placed beside a kind Education student (a girl) and when I asked for help in cleaning out the area for planting, she didn't even hesitate to help. And you know what's more worthy of praise? She cleaned out the whole spot, when I only asked for her to show me how! Isn't that a real blessing? Even as I started digging the hole for my tree, she was constantly around, ridding the area of itchy plants and later, even frogs! :)

After working very hard to clean to soil and getting used to the red ants crawling around, I was able to finish planting the first tree. As I said, the ES girl helped me throughout the whole time of my planting, and for that, I am very very grateful and indebted to her.

To make this long story short, I learned something from this experience without expecting it. As I was pulling out the weeds and the roots from the soil, I realized that it was similar to winning souls for Christ. Every person is different - some are harder to convince than others and some easily submit to follow Christ. The first time I pulled the weeds, I clutched all of them at the same time and tried pulling them out of the ground. I even tried chopping them off with my trowel! But some really wouldn't budge. I could feel myself getting blisters when I decided to pull them out one by one. As I did so, the weeds came out more easily, and some, even though they really took much of my time, also slowly came out.

At that moment, I felt God tell me that that was how to really share Christ to others. I can't just try to win souls for the sake of doing it - I have to treat every one of my targets as people with different backgrounds, roots, and beliefs. I have to take the time to work with them and allow them to understand that pulling them out of the darkness, the dirt in their lives, are for their benefit. :)

I may be really drained physically after that outreach for the people of Brgy. Pandan, but in the end, I could say that that event was successful. I learned more than a few things about life and Christ, and I was able to realize how lucky I am to be in my position.

#124: August!

:) It's good, for a number of reasons.
It's also the birth month of my lovely mom. <3
What should we get her?

Today is the day before our midterms, and I still have no idea of what we're going to take a test on. Seriously, this is freaking me out. So why am I telling you all about this instead of studying my brain out? Beats me. :I argh.

I can feel my eyes slowly drooping as I fix the teaser of Intrams for ADNU, and thankfully, I'll just have to wait for the results from our department head. :)

Oh, and I just remembered: It is NECESSARY for me to WAKE UP EARLY tomorrow, for all the important reasons. Gahhh! :)

Praise God for the strength and wisdom! I wouldn't get through this without Him, and He has never failed me even in the most overwhelming of circumstances. <3 I love you Lord! Thanks for being with me and my family all the time! Thank you for providing our every need and for ensuring our health and safety! Thank you, thank you!

#122: It's almost August!

If my title makes you think I am somehow disappointed of this fact, think again. LOL. I am super excited for this month to arrive, mainly because so many things are going to happen!

1. Midterms.

Yes, the first week of the month is scheduled for our midterms, which is 20% of our grade this semester. It's no pressure really, but of course, it's a great feeling to be able to be on top of the class right? I'm really trying my best to always have high grades and hopefully be included in the PL or DL at the end of the sem. :)

2. Oraa vacation.

The Oraa's are my cousins. And yes, they hail from the UK. Haha. I'm really itching to talk to them and really be with them in the flesh because it's been years, YEARS, since we were together. I hope we won't have any awkward firsts when they arrive! ;P I can immediately think of ways to hang out with them, especially AJ, that cute doll! :D

3. Org Activities.

As I aforementioned, I am a member of a few clubs at school, and both have a lot of activities planned for the month. Let's start with ALA.
ALA has three planned events, namely, Idea Generation Seminar, Paper Cup Session, and the TBA (Team Building Activity). I've already confirmed by attendance in the first event, but I'm still unsure with the last two. :( Hope I can decide soon though.

The other club is SSG. As a member of the communications department, I was tasked to make a teaser (second wave) for the INTRAMS also this August. I haven't started it yet, but I already have an idea. The thing is, what I plan to draw is often not what comes out on the paper. I wonder why? Poor concept perhaps?

So there.

Adios! :D I'll make another post after this one.

#121: So much has passed!

How long has it been since I made my last real, fruitful, sensible blog post? Not in a while that's for sure. But hey, you guys can't blame me if I no longer have enough time to update this blog of mine! College life is busier (but more fun) than I expected it to be. I am having the time of my life.

So right now, there's a tropical storm in the Philippines, Bagyong Juaning. When I woke up this morning, I had a gut feeling that classes would be cancelled due to the harsh weather but still, I woke early and started texting all my classmates, asking if they would be going to school today. No one replied. Perhaps they were still asleep, I concluded, and this was later verified when those people I texted sent a group message saying they just woke up at 10 a.m. Wow.
My mom kept assuring me that there would be no classes. I was starting to panic when no one replied, and thankfully, our 24-hour internet still hadn't expired. Navigating to the FB ADNU-SSG page, I realized that all my worrying was for nothing. Just minutes after logging in, the moderators posted an official message from our University President stating that classes are suspended. I was relieved as hell.

Then, in about an hour, another update appeared on my Facebook feed. "Dress Up day is cancelled. We can't schedule it for next week either because its Midterms week. Keep posted for updates." Okay, that wasn't exactly how the message was posted, but you get the idea. The Dress Up Day was scheduled for tomorrow, July 27 (btw, DUD is when you dress up in a corporate attire, much like how you would dress up for work). We were all relieved and my classmates posted their reactions on our group page. *sigh. Such happenings. :)

Apart from that, the internet was surprisingly fast unlike the other days. Literally faster. :) Oh, and I am also so relieved to not have classes today because I'm still not prepared for the lessons. Yes, our teachers are proving to be evil (LOL).

So yeah. I guess that's all for now aye?
Maybe I can squeeze in more blogging time in the future.

#120: Uni Overload!

College, in general, is a great experience. It's where you get to do what you are passionate about and eventually be that someone you've always aspired to become. I agree with this 100%, though lately, university life is proving to be more serious than fun.

No, it's not because I don't like my subjects or my classmates; it's due to the pressures around me to be the best and excel, to please and not to disappoint. With so many things and events going on which require my attention,  I'm finding it hard to distribute my abilities and time. As of now, I am a bonafide member of the Ateneo's Supreme Student Government (SSG) as a TUG constituent of the Communications department. So far, I have met 9 of our 10 members, including the Department Head and the PIO (I was surprised that this dep't didn't have a lot of members). I have been tasked to do an advertisement/poster for the ID campaign, which seeks to urge Ateneans to wear their ID's even after they pass through the security guard at the gate. I can feel the pressure, but I want to prove my worth as a member. If I don't do a great job with the poster, I doubt they'll give me future similar projects. I have fear of rejection, and as much as possible, I'd hate to experience this as early as now.

I also have two more preliminary exams next week, Computer and Mathematics. :D Pressures.

As usual, gtg. :)
Tell you more next time...

#119: Prelims!

Heya all!

How did your week go? Awesome, I hope?
Mine was exhausting. But then again, experiencing negative things helps us appreciate the positive things in life more, so if you ask me how the week went by with this fact, I can say that the week was a blast. :D

I rarely find the time to blog regularly, and so I try to make up for lost, untold days. There's something big that's about to happen this week - PRELIMS!

Finally, I'll get to experience a college exam! LOL. But seriously, I'm feeling kind of nervous, since I have my goals for this semester and one of them is to excel in all the subject exams. I really do I hope I'll have awesome time discipline this weekend for preparation.

Gotta scram.
Off to study and do other major needs (like eating meryenda).

#115: Is this really how college is?

It's been almost 3 weeks since the first day of classes, and already, I am experiencing stress from two different subjects: English & Philippine History. Let me explain.

I don't want to brag, but I really excel in English. If you would give me an exam on the subject, I can guarantee a 99% pass. It has been my favorite subject since elementary, and it still is. The only problem - reason - that I am facing now is the fact that our teacher gives us homework that require the use of all parts of our brain. She may give us only two items to do at home, but each item is a burden. Forgive me if I can't visually explain my point, since I fear some students from school may read my blog and tell our teacher.
One recent example of this is our task to do an outline (formal), answer and read the handout she has given, and then make a summary of those outlines. If you think of this as a single subject, it isn't much of a pressure - until you go to your other classes and realize how loaded you'll be after school, due to the amount of new assignments given by other teachers. Get my point?

Another subject I am most unhappy (and tense) about is Philippine History. The first few sessions were alright, but last Tuesday, I really got pissed of by our prof. He gave me a zero for that day's recitation! All I did was repeat his question to a classmate beside me and he gave me a zero! I wasn't even attempting to give the answer to him! Sheesh! What the hell right? Can you believe how paranoid he is? He thought I was telling my classmate the answer! The worse part was that he didn't even want to hear my explanation. He just ultimately pissed me off that day. (Pardon my language.) I think I'm beginning to very much dislike his subject. The only thing that motivates me to go on in Phil. History is my grades. I need to show him that he made a mistake by giving me a zero.
He messed with the wrong girl. XC

All my other subjects are a breeze. No stress, no pain. Well, except for our NSTP-CFFP sessions. Really! Who invented this subject and why did they have to integrate it into college courses? (I just realized how emotional I'm becoming right now.)

Other news: 

I joined the Ateneo Literary Association (ALA) which deals with reading, blogging, writing, arts, drawing, etc. I knew I would be able to enjoy this org so I joined. We'll be having our first General Assembly tomorrow after school. Can't wait! :)

I also joined the Supreme Student Government (SSG). Yey! I attended the talk for Leadership Training last Friday and so far, I am getting good vibes from the officers and other new student volunteers. :)

Lastly, I signed up for the ADNU school publication, The Pillars. My other classmates are aiming for the cartoonists' position while I have decided to stick to my first love under journalism: Feature Writing. Oh yeah! They'll be having the tryout this June 24, 25 so I'll have to prepare for this. :)

Ayt! Be off to do some homework now! 
Until next time!

#114: OMG.

Notice my long absence?
It's because of a big 7-letter word: C O L L E G E.

I had really grand plans for this post, but sadly, my habit of procrastinating has covered me once again. Arrgh. I hate it when this happens! I make a new post with high goals and finish with a poor excuse for an entry. *sigh. Soooo busy these days I don't think I an update as often as I used to!

Don't worry though. One of these days I'm going to REALLY write a fruitful, substantial blog entry that will hopefully tell my first two weeks in Ateneo.


P.S. I know I've been very undecided about making/keeping a different blog for my college life, but seriously, I've made up my mind this time. I will be separating my personal life events from the happenings of school. :) Arggh. Though I must say as I am typing this my mind is still trying to veer from this course. :( Maybe it's because I really, really love my blog. :) Let's see how THIS one turns out. I have a feeling though that this is bound to be another failure. *sigh

The Dilemma: I love how the other blog looks like! Help me decide please?
Here's the other blog: link

I am TORN. Soooo darn much.

#113: I'm officially BACKKK!

My last post was about my moving in to a new house on the web right? Well, It's been about two weeks already and I'm really missing my old home! :(

So I've made up my mind.


The other blog will still be updated though. :)
I have soooo much to tell you all!!

God bless! Bye!

#112: Moved :) or :(

I'm still unsure of my decision, but for now, I have decided to move to a new house in cyberspace, under the rulings of Mr. Wordpress.

So though it somehow saddens me, I've moved HERE. Click to see the new blog! :)
But no worries. I won't delete this blog. :) I love the people I'm following too much!

Bye and see you guys at the new blog!

For my Art and Writing blog (still in wordpress), click HERE.

#111: The nearing move to Naga

Hey there! I've been away for quite a while, yes? Well anyway, I just thought I had to share with you a couple of new things that'll (maybe) keep me busy this week.

First, I've made another blog, under Wordpress this time! It's a blog on my writing and art journey, so I bet it's going to be pretty good, LOL. Click this to view, please!

Second, we'll be moving in to the new house in Naga for my ORSEM week at Ateneo, on July 2-4. I may or may not have mentioned the drastic changes that happened regarding where we were going to stay, since we didn't push through with our first choice and instead pursued the other house, which is nearer to ADNU. Maybe I should make a separate post about that sometime? So yeah.

Third, my dad's going to come home for vacation on July 9, and though I can't personally meet him at the airport like I originally planned (darn college schedule!), I'll be able to meet him at the bus terminal in Naga. :) And that makes me excited just as much.

Another random thing I'd like to add is the fact that I am getting more addicted to Zombiepandemic, an online MMORPG that aims to mainly let you fight zombies, loot stores, and earn money. LOL. Gotta go! Here's a cute image to leave you with:

#106: The Discussion and yesterday's Blogger

Let' start with the state of Blogger yesterday.

I tried to log in to my blog account to post something random when a message came on the screen (instead of the usual dashboard/home) saying that Blogger is fixing some issues about the Popular Posts widget due to the number of complaints over the past few days. Blogger wasn't accessible yesterday, and I really had to update my blog so... well anyway, it doesn't really matter since Blogger's back up today! :D

The Discussion

Okay, so I may  not have mentioned to you guys about me wanting to buy an Ipod Touch. I researched about it, the prices and where it was a helluvalot cheaper. I went to the Apple store in the Philly (online) and finalized on what I was going to buy. Here's the link: 8GB Ipod Touch. I sent it to my dad's inbox on Facebook, and waited anxiously for his reply. (Before I sent it to him, we already had a previous talk about the prices, and so I asked him if he could look at the Touch's price in Oman.)

So after a few hours, dad finally went online and we got to start our "discussion".
I told him about the converted price of the Ipod online, and it amounts to 112 in rials. It was pretty cheap, especially since it was already 8GB and stuff, right? Plus, you could get it customized and have an engraving on the back. Well, he then said the price for an Ipod in Oman was 85 RO. 85! It was cheaper! I then realized he was talking about the 4GB Touch. But whatever right? 4GB is better than nothing! SO I pleaded with him (through chat) to buy me the Ipod before he went home this June.
Well, it was also typical of dad to ask me why I needed it so badly.

I had to think of reasons kaagad! And as of that moment, my mind was totally not functioning. I told him I was going to need it for school. I gave him 3 reasons, and after a while, he replied back. He said, "Pag-pray natin yang Ipod mo for provisions, ok? Sabay sabay kasi ang gastusin eh." This reply of his actually gave me a glimmer of hope. At least he didn't say a final no. All I have to do is pray about it, and if God will allow me to have this bit of luxury, then thanks! Thanks so much! <3

Right now, I am pretty excited, even though the purchase of my Ipod still hasn't been confirmed. But c'mon! It isn't bad to have hope right? (Oh my gosh, I'm totally sounding like a materialistic person! Sorry about that. I don't know why I suddenly feel so drawn to Apple products these days! *sigh)

#105: Ateneo, SM, and the Storm

This past week, I did three major things:

1. Go to Ateneo for enrollment and payment of tuition.
2. Went to SM Naga and shopped. :D
3. Watch the storm pass by and wreck stuff.

#1: Stories from The Ateneo.

The enrollment started last May 4, if I remember correctly, and so we made it a point to go to Ateneo as early as possible. We went the the following day, May 5, and thankfully, there weren't loads of people left. My guess was that they all filed in at the first day and left the other days for us far-from-home people.
So anyway, the process was very organized, and all the staff were very kind and provided excellent service. There was a room where applicants could finish up their application forms and pass it to a student staff member for submitting to the next room, where they generated student ID numbers. From there, you had to just pay dues and you're all done.

If you're a BS Digital Illustration and Animation student (like me), there was one more place and task to do before you are officially enrolled. See, as I was called for the generating of ID's, the subject advisor read my file and saw that I was indeed a BSDIA student. She told me to follow another staff member up into the building - which led me to the DA's main office. (DA stands for Department of Animation.) Before the advisor disappeared from my sight, I heard her say something about a screening exam.

I didn't know what was happening! I was worried out of my wits and I didn't expect a screening test at all! I had zero preparation, and my mind was cluttered too much. Thankfully, my mom went up with me and kept me company. I didn't know if I was smiling or laughing or crying. Nothing made sense that time.
Soon, I was called into the office. I wonder what I'm going to do here? My question was answered briefly by Ben, someone who worked for the DA. He indirectly told me that I was going through an interview at that very moment. All those questions about me and how I learned to draw and why I wanted to study Animation - all that were for the interview. Wow. Awesome. Another unexpected event for the day.

It wasn't nerve-racking (the Interview) at all, and I actually relaxed a bit after about 5 minutes. He was kind and quiet, and his cute little daughter was at work with him! Doll was so cute! As we were nearing the end of the interview, he asked if I was ready for a screening exam, which had two parts: a written exam about Computer Graphics, and a drawing exam that was going to determine if I had enough talent for the course. I guess he noticed my hesitation 'cause he told me to ask my mom (who he saw with me earlier outside the room) if it was okay for me to take the test that afternoon. (May hinahabol kasi kaming ride pauwi sa Del Carmen, kasi nga, hindi kami comfortable dun sa new house namin sa Naga. Eh hanggang 5pm lang yung trip ng mga van. Baka hindi na kami umabot kasi mga 2.5 hours yung exam lahat-lahat.)
Mom immediately said yes, because it would be a waste of time and money to come back for the test the following day. I went back to Ben and after paying Php50 for the qualifying exam, he issued me a receipt and I was out the door.

Mom asked me what I did inside and what time the exam was going to start. According to Mr. Ben, I had to be back at that office by 12:45pm, and that didn't give us a lot of time to eat lunch. It was already 12:00nn! And we still had to order at the Coco Cafe to get our meal. (btw, Coco Cafe is this elite-looking restaurant inside Ateneo that serves yummy cuisines. It had a Starbucks feel to it too, minus the sky-high prices.)
I guess the best part of being so tense is the excuse to be talkative and to wolf down your food. I did the talking part, but the wolfing down, not so much. How could I eat when I knew I wasn't prepared for the qualifying exam? I looked across the table to JP, who was eating his Adobo and leaving out the meat. He only touched the soup. Haha. I smiled at him and said, "Buti ka pa JP, parang wala lang! Hindi ka manlang concerned sa kahit ano! Maging tense ka naman para sakin oh!" Mom and Bugoy (a cousin) laughed and kept on eating. Well, I was able to finish my lunch, and soon, I was on my way back to the DA office. JP, mom and Bugoy had to inquire at Montessori for JP's studies, so I was left alone. They were coming back after my exam anyway.

A lot of little things happened as I waited for the exam, but those aren't important. The test takers appeared one by one, and when there were about 5 of us, Mr. Ben ushered us into the DA lab beside the main office. The lab was very impressive, with a BIG flat-screen TV and monitors surrounding the sides of the room (for students' use). There were 10 separate desks in the middle of the room, and we were told to take our seats. The cute guy I was talking to earlier sat beside me, but we had a large gap between us, as the desks were spaced to avoid cheating and stuff. Good thing.

So to make the long story short, I passed the exam (much to my relief) and I had fun. It didn't feel like an exam at all, since most of what I did was draw. Haha. SO freaking fun. We were then asked to go back down to the Student ID people and go back to the DA to get my schedule. The last step was to pay for the tuition.

We thought we were going to make it to the Treasurer's Office before it closes, but to our dismay, it was closed. Mom was furious, because it wasn't even 5pm yet! They closed earlier than expected, probably because it was Summer, and that is was a Thursday. We had no choice but to return to Naga on or before May 7, since that was the deadline of payment.

#2: The trip to SM Naga.

So we went back on May 7, and the first thing we did was go to Ateneo for the payment of tuition fees. It was pouring so HARD that day, and we were wearing jackets. I actually thought it would stop raining anytime soon, but I was wrong. It rained even HARDER. Oh well. At least we had a big umbrella.

So we went to SM Naga after the rain receded a bit, and I had a great time shopping for a few stuff. :D And I found my thang:

I have always, ALWAYS loved Sarah for her talent, her beauty, and for who she is! She is so down-to-earth, and even though she is one of the most successful artists in showbiz, she still remains humble and kind. As I read a review about her, Sarah is very un-diva-ish. And I love her for that! I have like, a complete set of her CD's and after about 3 years of not having any printed material about her, I finally have this magazine! So awesome!!!

Apart from that, I also bought a blouse, a movie called "Thirteen Ghosts", and (would you believe it) a Deluxe 2CD Edition of Taylor Swift's Speak Now album.

I like Taylor Swift, but you can't call me a die-hard fan. I mean, she has great talent and is very pretty, but I dunno. Haha. Whatever. I just realized I love Taylor Swift!!! I am going to buy the rest of her CD's when I get back to SM Naga! :)
It was really raining, and it looked so much like a storm already. Praise God, my uncle and aunt offered to take us home to Del Carmen! It's roughly a 2-hour drive without traffic, but because it was raining, we had to be extra careful on the road. Thank God, we made it safely home. (Oh yeah, we played at the Arcade, but the photos are on Mom's phone. I'll make a post about it later on.)

#3: The Typhoon Bebeng.

Yesterday, I didn't see the sun at all. When I woke up, it was already gloomy, and rain was already pouring outside. The wind was cold, and I regretted not wearing a jacket or anything to cover my arms and legs. I know it's still supposed to be summer, but I guess the wet season settled in early this year.
The storm caused a brown out, and therefore we had no TV, internet, and no light. Good thing it was cold, so we didn't really complain about sweating. This event lead us to do things we had put off because of distractions. JP was able to answer some of his exercises, and I was able to write on my diary again, after a month. We also took out our laptops and had a movie trip out on the Balcony. Haha. It was fun, as usual. JP enjoyed the storm most, because it was his first time to witness something like it.

And that sort of ends this entry! :D It went longer than expected.
God bless! xoxo

#103: My Goshhh!!

I am extremely tired!! Sobra! (Super, in english)
Today was my brother's birthday, as I mentioned in my previous post and we had a lot (and I mean a lot) of visitors. Oh lol. SO much picture taking went on today, and the videos were almost epic. Almost.

Isn't it amazing how I can still blog about this when I am so beat up? This is just crazy.

Tomorrow, we're going to Naga to fix our schooling papers, enrolment and stuff. Looking forward to getting my papers processed in Ateneo tomorrow, then heading out to SM to have some frozen Yoghurt and a trip to National Bookstore. And let's not forget the blank CD's I just have to buy soon.

Everytime I think about Naga, the word stress just pops put of my head. I have NO IDEA why this is so. I'm hoping to find out soon, after we've settled down in the new, creepy house we're gonna spend 4 years in. NOT looking forward to it much! I guess I was expecting really clean and awesome houses, like the ones we lived in back in Australia and in Oman. These are the times where money would've been most helpful. But where is it when you need it!?

This is my mood tonight:

G'night, ya'll. X_X

#102: Last Day of April

I'm excited. I'm horrified. I'm ecstatic. I'm terrified.

You may observe that I'm feeling a lot of the same emotions. It's all because of:

1. Tomorrow, May 1, is officially one month before classes start in Ateneo.
2. On May 2&4, JP will have his entrance exam at St. Joseph, and I will enroll at Ateneo.
3. I'm so pressured about my studies!!! :(
4. JP and I are having trouble settling into the new house in Naga, where we'll spend most of my four years of schooling.

It's such a blur! <3 Though I AM a bit excited for classes to start.

#101: Seven Deadly Sins Challenge

Hiya! I remember telling you I had downloaded some blog challenges online, and I decided to answer this for 7 straight days. It'll just be one post, and here goes:


day 1 - pride. seven great things about yourself.

#1: My voice. I can sing pretty well, and I can reach most high notes that “average” folks can’t belt out comfortably.
#2: I can draw more than stick people. Think: 3D, Manga, Anime, Landscapes.
#3: I’m a great writer, may it be Fiction, Features, Editorials, Columns – you name it.
#4: I’m a fast learner, especially when I like what I’m being taught.
#5: I surprise myself be achieving more than what I first aimed for.
#6: I can design clothes that are wearable outside the runway, unlike most outfits I see on fashion shows these days.
#7: I give great advice to those who ask for it, and they are more than thankful afterwards.

day 2 - envy. seven things you lack and covet.

#1: Popularity. I know, it’s your typical wannabe here, but hey, doesn’t everyone want to get famous? There are a lot of benefits for being a celebrity, once you get used to the paparazzi.

#2: A better body. God wants us to be content with what we have right? Well, sometimes, I have problems accepting the fact that I have extra baggage. And with the fashion trends today (shorts, minis) it doesn’t make it easier.

#3: Naturally straight hair. I have natural waves/curls, so I can’t have my hair short, since I’d look like Goldilocks. I envy those girls who have straight hair so much! It has such a clean look about it.

#4: Money. My parents earn more than enough for our needs, but when I see those people who spend money on anything they want, the green-eyed monster strikes. Sometimes I ask myself why I didn’t get to have that kind of luxury. But it’s no big deal. When it comes to money for studying, I wish we had more than “more than enough”. My dream University is out there waiting for me!

#5: Confidence around guys. Why is it that making women friends is so easy while making friends with guys is torture? Maybe it’s just me, but I don’t like rejection. So I guess that’s why I rarely make the first move to befriend a guy. I wish I had more courage though.

#6: Charm. Yes, I want to be the girl who just flips her hair and attracts the attention of every hot guy around. I want to look a guy in the eye and see him grow uncomfortable under my gaze.

#7: Independence. I consider myself dependent, because I feel like I can’t be somebody without my friends, or my parents, or a boyfriend. There’s no sense of independence in me yet, but I hope to find it. Especially now that I’m going to college.

day 3 - wrath. seven things that piss you off.

#1: Crowded, smelly places. Think: Jeepneys, MRT’s, and the market place. I hate being squished and being deprived of clean oxygen.
#2: Ignorance. That’s putting it bluntly. I am not fond of people who ask questions when the answer is right under their noses! I just want to tear my hair out, whenever this happens.
#3: Backstabbers. Those sweet-faced cupcakes who talk to you like you’re their best friend and then talk trash when you’re out of hearing range.
#4: Kids who think they know everything. In short, Know-it-all’s. What’s terrible about these brats is that they don’t take your advice, much less listen to you.
#5: Malls with too much sales people. I hate it when they follow me around when I just want to be left alone and shop. I know they just want to help, but can’t they wait until they’re called for?
#6: People who stay in the fitting room for too long. I was in this situation when we went to SM to buy  jeans. There were three women who were inside, chatting loudly as they tried on the clothes. When the door finally opened, I thought they were done but much to my disappointment, they had just sent a friend to bring them more clothes. Selfish brutes.
#7: When my laptop unexpectedly shuts down and I don’t get to save my work (which I happened to work for 5 hours on). Only a rocky road ice cream keeps me from a major melt down.

day 4 - sloth. seven things you neglect to do.

#1: Keep my promises. It’s a trait I most detest, but sadly, my now degrading memory (thanks to stress) isn’t as great a secretary as it previously was.
#2: Stick to my goals. I start things and get very excited, but after a short while, I become tired of it and pour my energy somewhere else, thus the pile of unfinished projects.
#3: Drink 8 glasses of water everyday. It’s a health must, but my normal day consists of less than 5 glasses.
#4: Be honest about my relationships. I tend to lie to friends and sometimes even my parents about the relationships I have, something which will surely get me into trouble in the future.
#5: Be serious about being an artist. Singing isn’t a problem, but I get lazy when it comes to drawing, especially if I have to do sceneries and landscapes. I draw good anime people though.
#6: Learn how to cook. And I don’t mean boil an egg or cook rice – those are the easy stuff. I want to cook Chicken Curry, or maybe Chicken Alfredo, make a 3-layered cake – those complicated stuff. My specialty is canned corned beef, with lots of onions.
#7: Tell my parents that I love them. I find it hard to express my feelings out loud, and the only way I can do that is by writing. But I can’t write every night when I want to tell them I love them right? When I do say it, it feels sort of awkward.

day 5 - greed. seven worldly material desires.

#1: A palace as big and as beautiful as Mariah Carey’s Fleur De Liz. I want it with a pool, with white and pink and light blue interiors, with matching apple green cushions and stuff. You know how Mariah rolls, so I don’t have to enumerate details of my dream house.

#2: A pink Apple Laptop with my name engraved on the lid cover (the apple logo should be designed to complement my name). It should have a 1TB HD storage capacity, and running on i-Core 5 and above. Specs should be better than Sony’s, and sounds must have oomph.

#3: A closet full of shoes, all arranged by type, colour, and casualness. All the heels go together, all the boots, and all the flats/doll shoes. Sports footwear should have a separate cabinet, arranged by Brand. The dominating colours should be black, pink, and white.

#4: Tons of cute dresses from all over the world. Also arranged by season. There should be a lot of pastels and marshmallow colours. Ruffles should be moderate, but minis and denim shorts are a must.

#5: A complete collection of all the animation, drawing, and illustration software, books and other materials available. I should have every resource available for my art.

#6: My own recording studio, with people to operate them when I please and a band who can help me compose songs and make music. I only want THE BEST in the recording, audio mixing, and marketing industries.

#7: An endless supply of money I could use to buy my brother whatever he wants, to build my mom’s dream house, to travel the world with my dad and share in his goal to spread God’s word, and to help people in great need. I want to use this money to erase the word “poverty” from life’s dictionary and provide jobs/teach skills to those who lack livelihood.

day 6 - gluttony. seven guilty pleasures.

#1: I still enjoy pretending I am a princess with a handsome prince ready to save me. I love the fact that fairytales always have happy endings, and that love always victors in the end. That is one thing I expect out of life – happy endings.

#2: I love watching Pixar and Disney films, especially the old ones like Sleeping Beauty and The Little Mermaid. One of my newest loves is Wall-E.

#3: Stressed? I cure it with an hour of singing karaoke and belting out songs that really speak to me and my life.

#4: I write stories about love and adventure, and even though the heroines are different from who I am in real life, they are truly who I wish to be. I once wrote a story about a girl who was so beautiful that things would go her way and cute men lined up at her door. But she isn’t prideful, and is very innocent about life and its evils. Then, after a long struggle with a villain and other situations that make the story interesting, she gets her happy ending, and ends up with a guy who sees her for more than her looks.

#5: I LOVE looking good and taking pictures of myself. Vanity is your word.

#6: Sometimes, when I’ve watched a movie a lot of times, I tend to get this small girl crush on the hero, but only temporarily. I get so obsessed about him that I can’t stop thinking that I was the one in the movie with him. But as quickly as it comes, this short infatuation goes. Something which I’m very grateful for.

#7: I read a lot of books. A LOT. Most of them are books most people don’t even understand. LOL joke. Seriously, I read books that are as thick as three Harry Potter books put together.

day 7 - lust. seven love secrets.

#1: I had a crush on one of my classmates back in elementary in Australia. He was funny and had brown hair that looked like Edward’s and was very athletic. I don’t think he knew I had a crush on him, but if he did, he must’ve been teasing me, because whenever my girls and I hung out or played games, he’d come to us and join in on the fun. I still remember how my best friend would look at me when my crush lay beside me on the ground for the Chinese Garters game.

#2: I really love it when a guy knows what he wants. You know, those guys who come up to you and say, “I want you to be mine.” Or other cute, cheesy stuff like that.

#3: I wrote a book about the same guy I was referring to in the first secret. (Read no. 1) I’ve never posted it online though but a few of my friends have read part of it.

#4: A guy once treated me with so much respect and adoration that I almost fell in love with him. ALMOST. I found out later on that he did this to a lot of other people who were his friends. Darnit.

#5: There was a time in High School where I had a boyfriend but my parents didn’t know about it (lucky you, being the first I admitted it to). He called me in school but never at home in case my dad or mom picked it up. It was only for about 6 months, but now I realize that it was just our way of escaping certain things that made us feel unimportant. We have no contact with each other now.

#6: When I love someone, I give my all into the relationship, risking everything I have to offer. People who are like me are usually the first ones to get heart-broken.

#7: I don’t believe in love at first sight. It may be admiration or lust, because you only get feelings for a person because of his/her looks. I believe in a deeper sort of love. One where you might be the ugliest girl in the room, yet he tells you you’re the only girl he sees and still loves.

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