This year was huge for me in terms of traveling. Since August, it seemed like I had suddenly won the lottery, threw all my cares out the window, and just decided to see more of the world.
I guess I had reached a point where I just didn’t want to be stressed out by the reality of how hard life can be. Maybe I just didn’t want to care about what other people would think about me anymore. Whichever the reason, I did what I had always wanted to do.
(I had meant to vlog these little trips but got caught up with work.)
This was also the first time I traveled overseas alone. This was definitely a nod to my goal of becoming more independent and self-aware by the end of the year.
While spending some time alone, I was able to reflect a little on life, my situation, where I expect to be in the next few months, and what the hell I did wrong. You see, when I graduated college three years ago, I had grand dreams of getting employment at Pixar or Laika as either an animator or character designer. I had a need to prove myself worthy of the Cum Laude honors I received. It got to my head. I was so full of it.
The time I spent in Singapore allowed me to do a little reflection of my situation. Whether or not I was willing to make more wrong decisions for the sake of comfort or just give it all up for my dreams. Here are some of my reflections.
At 26, I no longer have the luxury of time. What I thought I could do in small waves should now be done as quickly (and as soon) as possible.
Am I still willing to sacrifice my career growth for the purpose of seeing the company I’ve grown to love take-off and fly?
I have a lot of regrets, but if I leave where I am… will I regret that too?
What would I be doing right now if I chose a different talent to hone? Would I be in Singapore still, or would I be living permanently somewhere else?
5. Passion… or pay? As much as I hate to bring those two apart, I have yet to experience a period where they are both favorable.
6. I need a financial advisor. And someone to actually manage my money for me.
7. I really need a different job. I need a place where I am given the freedom to grow and devote time to improving my skills.
8. Maybe getting married will solve most of my problems.
Too bad I only spent like 2-3 days in SIngapore. I think the fiancé would’ve loved to come with me, but he had classes for his Master’s. At least I got some alone time.
I guess that’s all for this post. I’ll try to be more active here and post more energetic things (though it might take a while).